I sit here today my mind cleared of the cob webs as I begin to build the first of my creations. The words flow freely from my mind tonight as the lightening arches across the summer sky. I wonder deep inside if there is something that I am not seeing something that is fundamentally wrong with me something that I never looked at before, why do I not see it? where is it hiding from me, there is nothing more important than ones sense of self and yet mine has hidden away from me like an elusive fly that can not be caught the image is there but the answer is not.